Endless Summer. Because, L.A.

Summer, can we have a do-over?

My favorite season was rough, so living in a city that feels like an endless summer is such a blessing. Because, while seasons change and circumstances do too, I am grateful for the constants in my life.

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My faith being the main constant. I don’t know what I would do without God.

Summer proved this truth yet again.

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I made this one piece months ago and when I was looking through photos of “gems that I haven’t shared yet,” this one stuck out.

The color blue can have so many meanings, but I am choosing the optimistic meaning – peace.

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Some seasons are high, some are low. This is life. So summer, I know we can’t have an actual do-over. And that’s okay. My constant is all the peace I need…no matter what each season may bring.

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I pray reading this brings you the same peace this gem has brought me. Keep on keeping on!

Find Me Where The Wild Things Are

“All good things are wild and free!”

This is one of my favorite quotes as well as one of my personal ethos, so I can’t believe it took me this long to embrace animal print in fashion.

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Seriously, I owned absolutely nothing. Wild, right!?

Well, this simple dress and bikini changed that.

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I got the dress fabric on sale at JoAnn’s and the swim fabric was a steal from my last New York trip. I convinced the salesman to sell me only 1/2 a yard even though 1 yard is their minimum.

So for $12 dollars total, my animal print capsule is off to a great start!

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Very fitting simply because my favorite part about being my mother’s daughter was that she let me be me – wild and free. We were so different, yet she never tried to change me.  I know now that that constant support and love is what made me who I am today – unapologetically wild and free.

My personality and my summer wardrobe are very happy!

6 Years. Still Gathering Myself.

Today is Thursday, July 25th 2019 but it still feels like Thursday, July 25th 2013 sometimes. Six years ago today is the day I called home to talk to my best friend only to find out from the EMT team and police that she had just died. Minutes before my call.

Life will always feel like a miracle after that day. How I gathered myself after this devastating loss still feels like a miracle. Some days I can hold it together, other days I still fall completely apart.

But because life truly feels like a miracle since this day six years ago, I try my best to gather myself quickly when I fall.

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July, my birthday month, will always come to a challenging end when I remember this day. I was out celebrating the 25th day of my birthday month on my mother’s last day on earth. Celebrating all month, a tradition she taught me at a young age, is full of guilt now. I haven’t celebrated all 31 days since 2013.

But this year I felt ready to try. However, not even two weeks in, a few days before my actual birthday July 15th, I had two anxiety attacks. Back to back. And I couldn’t gather myself quick enough in between each one.

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I felt hopeless, tired and depressed right before my birthday. And when I couldn’t gather myself in order to get out of bed, let a long celebrate, my village of friends and family near and far gathered their resources, prayers, kind words and time. Surrounding me and lifting my spirit in a way that I desperately needed and will never forget.

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I ended up celebrating on the 15th. And 10 days later, on the day my favorite person went to heaven, I am still celebrating. Both my life and hers!

This dress of so many gathering stitches was the perfect birthday dress.

 

Swimming In Ideas

So all sewers know that sewing swim is quite the challenge. Like sewing leggings. Well, good thing I started with the leggings, so once summer made her debut, I was ready to take a go at swimwear.

I loaded up on fabric while I was in New York last, and had the right thread (Wooly Nylon) but didn’t know much about the final necessary notion – elastic. But thank goodness for Google! I discovered that rubber elastic is the best to withstand the chlorine and water, and the best place to buy it is on Etsy.

So once I gathered all my material I made the easiest cut possible – a string bikini!

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Which always makes me laugh. See, when I was six years old I asked my Mom if I could get a string bikini for summer camp. She literally laughed and wondered how I even knew what a string bikini was.

Of course she said no. It was too sexy and I was too young. But here’s the deal, then and now, I don’t associate a string bikini with being sexy. Yes, it is very revealing, but for a girl who moves around a lot – I’ve always seen them as freeing. That, and I have looked the same since I was 10. I developed really fast, stopped, and my voice has always been raspy. So long story short, I’ve unfortunately been called sexy more times than I’m comfortable with.

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So yeah, sexy or not. I love how free I feel in this string bikini as a woman and a sewer. There will definitely be more to come. My zip code requires it!

P.S. Does this material look familiar? Here’s a hint.