2021, Let’s Crush It

I love setting goals and don’t always need a new year to do it. However after all the lifestyle and career changes in 2020 I thought I would change things up and not do an annual vision board like I normally do. If 2020 taught us anything it’s that things can change fast so taking it one day at a time is key. Plus, since I spend majority of my time in my space both working and living I thought a DIY home project was in order to remind me of my commitment to take goal setting month by month this year.

Here’s the fun part – I had this random piece of wood leftover from my furniture set so I decided to pull it out from under my bed and add this chalkboard contact paper to make a decorative vision board that I will update monthly. The paint chalk markers are so pretty in this white, silver and gold set that I honestly can’t wait until February 1st to wipe the slate clean and make another board for my visions.

I am determined to crush all my business and personal goals this year and one (not shown on my board) is to blog more about the gems that I am designing. With a lot of them also now for sell I don’t want to lose the passion behind the fashion. Sewing has refashioned my life after the loss of my mother so here is the inspiration and correlation behind crushing my 2021 goals and these (made in 2020) crushed velvet gems.

Pre Covid I was miserable with my work. I am an actor by trade and haven’t booked a job in almost two years. My side hustle of teaching group fitness classes became my main hustle in order to make ends meet. And while I love fitness and working under my brand RAD Experience, working for a company at such a high level was not my jam. Then Covid happened. The gym closed down. Hollywood too. And the world I had been dreaming about opened up – working for myself on my terms.

Working for myself is not easy, but it is my preferred career path.

So while 2020 was challenging, it was one of the best years of my life.

I am so grateful it forced me into this way of life. I sew most days, create everyday and still work in fitness – under RAD Experience only. All in my studio apartment. So since it is just me, I sometimes wear my gems while I work. Like this black crushed velvet bodysuit. I used the fabric leftover from my last holiday party jumper that I made for said fitness company. My 10th holiday party with the company, second city that I worked for them in and my last holiday party with them. This jumper will always remind me of the life that I lived before Covid. So while I have so many goals to crush this year, I look forward to wearing this gem again. Maybe as a date to someone else’s company party (go on more dates – also one of my 2021 goals). I’ll keep you posted! In the meantime I’ll just be frolicking around my studio working, living and loving this newfound life.

Endless Summer. Because, L.A.

Summer, can we have a do-over?

My favorite season was rough, so living in a city that feels like an endless summer is such a blessing. Because, while seasons change and circumstances do too, I am grateful for the constants in my life.

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My faith being the main constant. I don’t know what I would do without God.

Summer proved this truth yet again.

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I made this one piece months ago and when I was looking through photos of “gems that I haven’t shared yet,” this one stuck out.

The color blue can have so many meanings, but I am choosing the optimistic meaning – peace.

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Some seasons are high, some are low. This is life. So summer, I know we can’t have an actual do-over. And that’s okay. My constant is all the peace I need…no matter what each season may bring.

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I pray reading this brings you the same peace this gem has brought me. Keep on keeping on!

Find Me Where The Wild Things Are

“All good things are wild and free!”

This is one of my favorite quotes as well as one of my personal ethos, so I can’t believe it took me this long to embrace animal print in fashion.

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Seriously, I owned absolutely nothing. Wild, right!?

Well, this simple dress and bikini changed that.

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I got the dress fabric on sale at JoAnn’s and the swim fabric was a steal from my last New York trip. I convinced the salesman to sell me only 1/2 a yard even though 1 yard is their minimum.

So for $12 dollars total, my animal print capsule is off to a great start!

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Very fitting simply because my favorite part about being my mother’s daughter was that she let me be me – wild and free. We were so different, yet she never tried to change me.  I know now that that constant support and love is what made me who I am today – unapologetically wild and free.

My personality and my summer wardrobe are very happy!

6 Years. Still Gathering Myself.

Today is Thursday, July 25th 2019 but it still feels like Thursday, July 25th 2013 sometimes. Six years ago today is the day I called home to talk to my best friend only to find out from the EMT team and police that she had just died. Minutes before my call.

Life will always feel like a miracle after that day. How I gathered myself after this devastating loss still feels like a miracle. Some days I can hold it together, other days I still fall completely apart.

But because life truly feels like a miracle since this day six years ago, I try my best to gather myself quickly when I fall.

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July, my birthday month, will always come to a challenging end when I remember this day. I was out celebrating the 25th day of my birthday month on my mother’s last day on earth. Celebrating all month, a tradition she taught me at a young age, is full of guilt now. I haven’t celebrated all 31 days since 2013.

But this year I felt ready to try. However, not even two weeks in, a few days before my actual birthday July 15th, I had two anxiety attacks. Back to back. And I couldn’t gather myself quick enough in between each one.

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I felt hopeless, tired and depressed right before my birthday. And when I couldn’t gather myself in order to get out of bed, let a long celebrate, my village of friends and family near and far gathered their resources, prayers, kind words and time. Surrounding me and lifting my spirit in a way that I desperately needed and will never forget.

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I ended up celebrating on the 15th. And 10 days later, on the day my favorite person went to heaven, I am still celebrating. Both my life and hers!

This dress of so many gathering stitches was the perfect birthday dress.